FEEL THE PAIN

The though kept running through my head
Has been for a while
I couldn't take another night
So I did it


Still bleeding
Still hurting
But it felt so good
I felt at home
In the pain that I remember
A familure feeling

When I could feel the blade cutting through the skin
All the anger began to sink in
I felt control in every slice I made
And for every slice
I let a memory fade

Finaly the bleeding is stoping
I still feel the pain
But the pain is calming
Better than feeling nothing at all
Better than thinking about our dying love
Better than anything would be to die

Now as I lie in my bed all alone
And cry myself to sleep
I hope when tmrw comes
I wont feel anymore pain
I hope the touch doesn't leave too much of scares
I'll dream of the love, the moment when the time was ours
And when morning comes
I hope I can let go

For everything we always had but never got to share
I guess it doesn't matter no more
I always knew
Life is not fair

But for the future we wont have together
I hope you know how much you've lost
To get back one day from the past
Would mean everything to me
Too bad i'll never getta see
What would have been
If what we had
Had lasted